biatches, i tell you

people are so shiesty these days. you think you know people and you think you have their trust, but the truth is, you cant trust most people. its a dark world out there now, and its filled with dark, mean hearted people. going out armed now. not going to be naive and blindsighted again.

restless monday

i think thoughts of going home for christmas are starting to keep me awake at night. i have made a post it countdown (24 days, yall) what else can i do?? its raining pretty hard right now and the thunderstorms should be starting soon. me and my teddy bear are prepared to hold on tight!

im so over everything right now

- im beyond exhausted
- even more exhausted knowing this is just the beginning of a chaotic retail season that awaits me
- i was told i look like someone today that is not cute whatsoever in my opinion, and it really took a toll on my self esteem
- i havent been going to the gym making me feel even worse
- i decorate trees all day at the hotel of move boxes around
- my feet ache, my back kills me, i think im starting to get calluses. bottom line, im falling apart slowly.
- im so tired, i almost couldnt figure out how to open up a bottle of vino
- im getting that invisible feeling again.. and i never enjoy that feeling.

started working in a dream world

i was so blessed to have been hired to work seasonal at the gaylord opryland hotel!! i couldnt be happier because the first time i walked into it, i was completely taken by the atmosphere, the beauty, and mostly, the people working there. i have never seen people look happier at work. and one thing i know now that i have gone through a 10 hour day of training, they really are happy to be there and work for this amazing company. it's not a fake smile like at disneyland, its real. these people genuinely care about their guests and they really want to know how they can improve each guest's stay at the hotel. i feel so lucky to be working for this company. i hope that when my job ends in january, i will have an opportunity to work somewhere within the hotel full time. maybe possibly make a career out of it. that would be.. awesome.

so many updates lol!

just kidding hehe. my life is pretty dull to tell the truth. one good thing to say is i have been so dedicated to fully using my gym pass i got last week. i have done a total of 12 miles since monday. for me, that is seriously something to be proud of. tomorrow is my day off and i will be going to the gym to make it a total of 15 miles for the week. and im the kind of person who enjoys rewarding myself when i do good things, therefore, me and sephora have a date tomorrow =D =D =D

so today at work was successful! i left the day with 2,000 in sales and we got someone to open a rewards card! i felt like i contributed today and that always feels nice.

amy and i built the huge bookcase i bought at target the other day. the directions basically said it was a piece of cake to build; why did it take us about 1.5 hours to build then?! i absolutely despise putting together any type of furniture. bottom line is i cant do it. or it takes me all day. literally.

now my room is looking more complete now and all i need to get is my little bitty desk tomorrow and a cute chair somewhere. and eventually get a rug in here. feels good to have it all coming together. at least in my room lol.

work work work

i wish i had something important or exciting to write about, but guess what? i dont! i work a big girl shift tomorrow and i hope that we really are able to make things happen. im going to go to work pumped up on caffeine, shaking like a crazy person, and ready to make those sales!!!!!! dear jesus i hope we are able to get a customer to sign up to be a rewards card member. that would be amazing. haha.. the things i choose to talk about in my blog. im such a loser :]