biatches, i tell you

people are so shiesty these days. you think you know people and you think you have their trust, but the truth is, you cant trust most people. its a dark world out there now, and its filled with dark, mean hearted people. going out armed now. not going to be naive and blindsighted again.

restless monday

i think thoughts of going home for christmas are starting to keep me awake at night. i have made a post it countdown (24 days, yall) what else can i do?? its raining pretty hard right now and the thunderstorms should be starting soon. me and my teddy bear are prepared to hold on tight!

im so over everything right now

- im beyond exhausted
- even more exhausted knowing this is just the beginning of a chaotic retail season that awaits me
- i was told i look like someone today that is not cute whatsoever in my opinion, and it really took a toll on my self esteem
- i havent been going to the gym making me feel even worse
- i decorate trees all day at the hotel of move boxes around
- my feet ache, my back kills me, i think im starting to get calluses. bottom line, im falling apart slowly.
- im so tired, i almost couldnt figure out how to open up a bottle of vino
- im getting that invisible feeling again.. and i never enjoy that feeling.

started working in a dream world

i was so blessed to have been hired to work seasonal at the gaylord opryland hotel!! i couldnt be happier because the first time i walked into it, i was completely taken by the atmosphere, the beauty, and mostly, the people working there. i have never seen people look happier at work. and one thing i know now that i have gone through a 10 hour day of training, they really are happy to be there and work for this amazing company. it's not a fake smile like at disneyland, its real. these people genuinely care about their guests and they really want to know how they can improve each guest's stay at the hotel. i feel so lucky to be working for this company. i hope that when my job ends in january, i will have an opportunity to work somewhere within the hotel full time. maybe possibly make a career out of it. that would be.. awesome.

so many updates lol!

just kidding hehe. my life is pretty dull to tell the truth. one good thing to say is i have been so dedicated to fully using my gym pass i got last week. i have done a total of 12 miles since monday. for me, that is seriously something to be proud of. tomorrow is my day off and i will be going to the gym to make it a total of 15 miles for the week. and im the kind of person who enjoys rewarding myself when i do good things, therefore, me and sephora have a date tomorrow =D =D =D

so today at work was successful! i left the day with 2,000 in sales and we got someone to open a rewards card! i felt like i contributed today and that always feels nice.

amy and i built the huge bookcase i bought at target the other day. the directions basically said it was a piece of cake to build; why did it take us about 1.5 hours to build then?! i absolutely despise putting together any type of furniture. bottom line is i cant do it. or it takes me all day. literally.

now my room is looking more complete now and all i need to get is my little bitty desk tomorrow and a cute chair somewhere. and eventually get a rug in here. feels good to have it all coming together. at least in my room lol.

work work work

i wish i had something important or exciting to write about, but guess what? i dont! i work a big girl shift tomorrow and i hope that we really are able to make things happen. im going to go to work pumped up on caffeine, shaking like a crazy person, and ready to make those sales!!!!!! dear jesus i hope we are able to get a customer to sign up to be a rewards card member. that would be amazing. haha.. the things i choose to talk about in my blog. im such a loser :]

so i went to target to get my desk and they only had it in pink. good grief.

I MISS SCHOOL.

i want to get a desk just to feel like a student again lol. i miss textbooks and highlighters. i miss language lab. i wish soooo badly i could take a class at the community college out here, but noooo out of state tuition is nuts! so, i think i will get a desk and make myself feel like i have something to study for. because i miss it. i miss all of it.

here's the desk i'm getting. the only choice i can afford lol.

fricken target.com. cant upload the pics. well, it's nice and simple. and small. oh, the life of a struggling college student hehe ;)

check out these pics i edited. im very proud of my work lol.

Disneyland 2009-2010. winter and summer seasons.

here's a few pictures that will always bring a smile to my face.

may i be as beautiful as this woman someday. love you grammy.

you know.. im not really happy right now

everything is going fine, i just haven't been very grateful lately. god has done so many positive things in my life and i take every bit of the good for granted. here i am living in my dream city. the place i fantasized about for 4 lengthy years. my wish and never ending prayer was answered. every new thing takes adjusting i understand that. it's just been rough these past few days. i feel like i'm not busy enough and pinching pennies sucks. i have worked so hard to get where i am and its annoying to see people that don't have to work hard get what they want. ugh. i need to just get over all of this. life is never going to be fair and there's always going to be people that get things handed to them. that's just how it is.

how i spent my day off

here's the bomb greek salad i made for lunch. it was so amazing! the things that make me happy lol. i havent accomplished much today, but i did read almost 100 pages in the book i'm on and i rearranged the kitchen a bit! and i'm blogging. its a productive day indeed. and now, im off to clean my room and bathroom. go me.

my big fat greek wedding always does this to me.

i love this movie with all my heart, but with all its humor, it makes me a little depressed every time i watch it! i find myself hoping i will find a man like john corbett's character in the movie. he is almost perfect to me. almost. so, here's to finding my ian miller out there in this vast vast world. maybe he lives in nashville lol.

it's a little too hot to handle here.

my goodness, fall, please hit nashville like the plague. i want to wear my pea coat and pretty scarves. and perhaps bake an apple pie from scratch. i think i will do that one of these days.. take my entire day off work and devote it to an intense course in housewife training 101. it's funny cause i really feel like baking a pie and other silly things are skills that will put me ahead of the next single girl out there. its a rare thing to find someone that actually likes to sweat in the kitchen.

ooh, i got paid today. maybe i'll have enough money to buy pie ingredients. i think i brought a pie dish with me, may have left it at home along with other countless kitchen necessities every housewife in the making needs. i should check on that. i doubt i can get a pie dish and ingredients for a pie right now. kind of sad lol. that's the price i pay for buying a 6 by 9 rug at work the other day. the thing was 400 bucks, marked down to 99! then with my discount, i got the huge bahemoth for only 81 dollars. if i didn't buy it, i would have been regretting it later. so, 81 dollars in debt i am.

The first post. Should set the tone of this blog...

Well, here I am. Blogging. Putting my heart and soul out to the world. Let's see how this goes :]